Hello everyone. It's been a long time hasn't it? My apologies for that. Many things has happened over the past two months. So many things. Thankfully it has calmed down again and I'm slowing going back into a rhythm and routine. It's comforting, especially after not having one for roughly a month or so. I suppose I should stop dancing around what has happened and tell you all.
In the beginning of July, I was able to finally purchase a place to live(-ish) with my boyfriend. We've been trying for a little over a year, but it has finally happened. Our relationship was a long distance one (A little over 500 miles and 8 and half hours of driving). For the two to three years we've been together, we've only been able to be together in person a little over a hand full of times. They were difficult times for both of us, slightly halting the growth of our relationship and causing strain. However, on August 16th of this year, my boyfriend and I made the pilgrimage south of where I lived to come live with him in his home state. And yes my boyfriend, the wonderful soul he is, flew up to me so we could both drive down together with my whole life in the back of a little U-Haul trailer. It was a difficult journey, mainly due to the constant rain and driving with a trailer for the first time.
This is not to say that there were not other problems with moving as well, especially at that long of a distance. Plenty of times of communication being misinterpreted or down right no communication at all with some people. Which caused havoc and mayhem with my move. However I do not wish to speak about this, for this is the past now and I am ready to move on. And I have in a way, both physically and mentally. It's freeing and extremely scary moving so far away. I'm still working on myself and my mental self, since moving had taken such a big toll on me mentally. It's one of the reasons of why I haven't posted anything here in such a long time.
I've been in my new home for a little over a month now and I'm starting to feel a little better. Not by much, but learning how to live here has been helping a lot. I can go to some places without GPS already and that makes me feel a little better about myself, even if it's a little silly. Learning where everything is at and how far all of it all is, was very difficult and hard to grasp. Where I used to live, which was an urban/small industrial city area, everything was close together within a 5-30 minute drive. However here, it is much more different and much farther away. Some drives are easily over 30 minutes to over an hour in length. And that's just getting to the location. You still have to drive that way back home as well.
I now live in a very rural and mountainous area. Vastly different from the flat lands up north. Even in such a rural area, there is still a bustling amount of people and cars. Even more so than I'm used to, which is very surprising to me. What else is very different from here and up north, are the amount of people who are genuinely kind. Do not get me wrong, there are plenty of mean people here too, however I am shocked by how people are so polite and welcoming. It's a stark contrast to the people up north and how they treat people there. Even with people who are not from here, they seem to imbue the classical "Southern Kindness" into their own mannerisms. Possibly to not be seen as an outcast or mean. Or because the "Southern Charm" has wormed their way into there hearts and made them kinder people.
After this long egregious explanation of why I've been away, what does it mean for here? Well, I want to slowly post on here again. With different types of writing and with different types of literature being shown. For example: I want to start posting book reviews/book journaling on here. I already write them down the books I've read this past year in a notebook and have been doing so all year long. It's been fun and feels a little refreshing when I comes to my writing. I'm not trying to impress others and I'm only writing about how the book made me feel and how it was written. I am by no means a professional critic or someone who should be revered as such, however I would like to put my opinion of the books I've been reading and want to put out there what I have read and possibly show them to other people to enjoy or even try themselves. Even if I didn't like them, they could be someone else's new favorite book. I will acknowledge if the writing seems poor, but even so, people should be given acknowledgement for publishing a book and should be given good criticism to grow further if they wish to grow as a writer. This includes myself of course.
Sadly as you can possible see, I did not participate in this years "Short Story September" by the Story Telling Collective. I wanted to. However due to the move, the homesickness, and the moving depression that has occurred over this past month or so, it was not possible for me. The thought of writing for awhile filled me with such mental exhaustion, that I couldn't do much for it. It saddens me that I couldn't start writing until now, but I was able to read more and get back into that hobby which has been very nice and relaxing. For now I will focus on reading and providing my thoughts and opinions on them. Especially since I have a very long to reading list...whoops. I won't stop my writing, I will try to do some before the end of this year, but I don't want to push myself. So for now, this is all I can provide on here. I apologize if that is not what you wanted from me, I can understand that deeply, however that is all I can offer for now. If you stick around, I thank you greatly. If not, I understand and thank you greatly for you support regardless.
I also will being working on posting more on Bluesky, especially with my blog, to over come my social internet anxiety. It's silly, truly, but It's something that I've mentioned here before and wanted to work on. Especially if I want to work on my social presents and want to share and grow this blog more. I will no longer be posting anything blog related on my Instagram, since it never seemed to help either sadly. Bluesky also seems to have a friendlier community and is more open for growth since they are smaller social platform than the other bigger, popular, and most known social media platforms like Instagram.
Over all I wanted to post an update on here and to show that I haven't forgotten this place. As well that I'm alive. If you have read this far, I thank you greatly. As well as appreciate everyone's support so far. So until then my friends, have a lovely rest of your day and until next time. Ta ta!
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